Do you ever feel like you’ve lost that battle?
They tell you to keep fighting on,
Never give up,
But for what?
I feel defeat sinking over me like a heavy weight.
I feel the breath in my chest struggle as I hesitate.
Hold on or let go?
I’m so certain that I don’t know.
I’m confused by him and his double meanings
Does he love me? Or am I just over thinking?
It’d be so powerful for him to finally say
That he apologizes for all the pain he’s delivered our way
But I don’t think he knows nor will he ever;
That when family says we love you, we mean forever.
I feel this grief in my heart,
What I thought I had lost I finally found; only to realize we’re still far apart.
I kicked and I screamed then I sat down and cried
Because every time I see him I feel like he died.
He’s gone, this kid with so much promise.
His eyes are vacant his words not honest.
I hurt knowing that I must have let him down
Let him take his pills and in his alcohol he’ll drown.